its amazing to me how much can fit into one day.
J says our life is like waking up by being shot out of a cannon
and going to sleep when we hit the ground again.
earlier this year I thought everything was going great with parenting and grad school and teaching and midwifey stuff and then I got crazy sick. for like 10 weeks.
back from a nice long rest, I am committed to not doing that again. I have my sense of self and sense of humor back and I am determined not to loose it.
(professors be damned)
at least not untill the end of the semester.
I was spending a lot of energy bemoaning how much time I'm at work and focused on just the basics of getting shit done. I want to be more political and more generous and more interesting and spend hours and hours studying and playing music for fun and talking to my husband and planning nice things to do for other people and....
I have given up. I have an end date for school (december 2008) and until then I have decided to not feel guilty shopping at trader joe's, recycling lessons, mopping with swiffers, not getting pregnant, or reading to little man till 8:30 or 9 every night. we need to hang out more than he needs to be in bed by 7:30, and he'll be fine as a four years older brother.
The other thing I won't do is continually justify my choices to the people around me - whether or not they give two beans about them - so, hang on to yr ass, this blog should get more interesting again really soon!
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For lack of a better catch phrase,
you go girl!
Seriously, you have got to realize how much you do do and give yourself a break - you can't do it all! And you practically are doing it all anyway. Don't let guilt get you down. You're an amazing mom, wife, teacher, and student... and person!! Nothing to feel guilty about, not one bit.
So sorry to hear you were sick. Hope you can get out and play in the snow this weekend with your boys. Take those couple minutes here and there for youself.
Love you, Ame!
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